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I had a nice therapy session, I was feeling anxious and hopeless but talking did me good. I told him how I can’t seem to get away from this big dark cloud on top of me, that everytime I try to get better I sink deeper into darkness and that I’m hardwired into negative thinking, that I knew I lacked emotional intelligence and so on. And I didn’t tell him this but I feel like I do all these things, I go to therapy, take my pills, try to practice mindfulness and still can’t seem to improve. Maybe a part of me doesn’t want to improve and get better because if I do, I’ll no longer be mentally ill, and if I’m not mentally ill I’d lose part of my identity… am I making any sense? I know this is really stupid but that’s how I feel, although I know my identity is not being mentally ill, it’s all the things that make me a person, I don’t really see those things so clearly… I need to change this way of thinking and realizing I’m a person, not an illness.

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mentalhealthkitten:

lexaprozac:

I just came across a blog of someone with eight different mental diagnosis at the age of 17!! Eight. Is that even possible? Couldn’t it be possible that, for instance, if you have bipolar disorder and major depressive disorder, the major depressive disorder is included in the bipolar diagnosis? Are psychiatrists overdiagnosing people? I have two main diagnosis and a secondary one and I think it’s quite a lot, but eight? What’s going on? Just a thought.

Some people have many, but some people are over-diagnosed. Also, yes: If you have Depression and Bipolar, it’s not true. You have Bipolar. What you thought to be your depression is actually just part of the Bipolar. People are so ridiculous sometimes. There are also many diagnoses that LOOK similar, so some psychs might diagnose everything that it looks like even though it’s actually just one thing?? Like for instance I thought for a long time I had OCD and agoraphobia but it turns out part of my OCD manifests through all the criteria for agoraphobia, and that can be hard to sort out. However, it is entirely possible for people to have 8 different diagnoses. A lot of things are frequently comorbid and related to each other (i.e., PTSD, DID, and depression; schizophrenia, depression, and some personality disorders; OCD, GAD, and bipolar disorder).

Thanks for clarifying that. I’m diagnosed with BPD and bipolar 2 and a secondary dissociative disorder that I’m not sure is part of my BPD, the same with the bipolar disorder that shares a lot of symptoms with BPD and I have sometimes a hard time making both disorders apart, I can’t imagine having eight different disorders and the confusion the person must feel. I still think it’s quite a lot and perhaps some symptoms are considered as a full disorder instead of part of something else and hence the new diagnosis. But like I said in my post it’s just a thought and I don’t know how psychiatry actually works.

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lexaprozac:

I just came across a blog of someone with eight different mental diagnosis at the age of 17!! Eight. Is that even possible? Couldn’t it be possible that, for instance, if you have bipolar disorder and major depressive disorder, the major depressive disorder is included in the…

Thanks for clarifying it.

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I’ve been extremely anxious these last couple of days probably because I stopped taking my risperidone because I wanted to experience things out of this world lol, but as usual whenever I stop taking my meds it backfires me and something unpleasant happens. I might go back to risperidone then.

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